I don't know if I can continue doing praise...
It's hard to be a good piano accompanist after I've not been playing it for more than 6 years... feels like I've just been trying to force something out for the past 2 or 3 weeks.
Besides, I see my classmates getting works done in the weekend, while I was always running around places...
Does it mean I should push myself harder? or maybe it's just not something I can accomplish anymore..
And if going to church is just an act of obeying God's command, doesn't it mean that I can go to any church? at least a church that's closer to where I am?
I'm just throwing out my ideas here...
Also, Richie's good at his teaching job, so is May. So is Eric in his new job, and so are Ki Young and Jimmy enjoying their new career. But I'm not good in what I do...I'm a little worried that I might have chosen the wrong major...but it's probably too late to change now...and I don't know what major I'm supposed to be neither...
Sigh.
1 comment:
Hey Christina,
I truly wish to encourage you through this time of placing your trust and faith in God. I don't in any means to discourage you through this reply as well. You're an awesome instrumentalist on the keys and on the acoustic piano because of your heart in praising God. When you're up and playing with us it's really an encouragement to me and I'm sure everyone on the team and in the congregation.
Most definitely I do not wish to stretch you out to the point of hindering your growth nor bringing you doubts and fears of what God desires for you Christina. God truly loves you. If you believe that then all the other things you're feeling will come to pass to see where God is leading and working in your life.
Did you notice that no one tells you what to do about your life? You are the master of your own life and you decide what to do with that. The beauty of all this is that we have a counselor, friend, a father, a guide, a personal Saviour whom we gave our lives to. He (Jesus) cares about what you go through every single nanosecond of your daily walk with Him. Our lives of worship and praise start with that overwhelming response of gratefulness to that very God. It's a very humbling and subtly rewarding time on earth but definitely worth all the while to do so while we still have a chance to do so. Your honesty and innocence is something that is appreciated and cherished greatly so don't think too less of yourself as far as your ability as a worshipper of God. Remember Christina, it was He who found you, it was He who saved you, and it was He who cleansed you and found you righteous in His sight. If it wasn't for Jesus' death and resurrection all this stress isn't worth an inkling of your time and heart. I'm not sure of what your reasons for praising God were in the first place but all I really care about and desire for the people who play on our praise team is that they have a true and honest heart to worship the Lord and we'll leave the rest up to God. Hope I encouraged you at least a little.
God Bless & Praying for you,
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